Questions that go through your head before church...

Our church schedule is different then most. We are at a church plant and my servant husband is on the set up crew. Did I tell your our church is thirty mintues away? So on a normal Sunday we get up at 6 leave at 7 and I drop Daniel off at 7:30. I then drive to the nearest Starbucks and wake up. While waking up yesterday I started thinking about church and how I felt about it yesterday morning specifically. My first thoughts were....Non Christians "seem happier" on Sunday then we do. Next thought was what are "we" doing sitting in a building on Sunday and while doing so getting pump up to go and take on the world for you but come Monday we are forgetting it all. How much faith do we really have in you? I have learned in the past not to ask for an increase in faith unless I really mean it so instead i will ask for more love. More love for people inside and outside the church. How can I love those around me more?

This morning the Lord was answering me in my time with Him.
"You have to know me more Jenny"

Why is it I believe that others (friends, family, the church) have the responsibility to make sure I'm spiritually, mental, and physically happy? Where did this concept come from? I have been reading through the bible, and i am in Job. Job is not my favorite book and I have trouble reading it, yet the more I'm reading the more i am realizing why Job is in the Bible. He is not dependent on his circumstances, his family, his friends, his church. He is dependent on God and God alone. We as Christians have better start getting it, we cannot depend on anything or anyone but HIM. I think that we as a church have just forgotten this. We are depending on packed churches, great youth and children programs, and amazing worship. I hope we get it soon or our churches are going to beccome non exsistant or worse filled with people who hate to go to His house.

I pray daily that this would be a realization for me. That I could quit complaining and start praising.